That was hard!

I didn't really see this one coming!!  Me and my little guys went for a walk this morning to our local pharmacy.  After spending about 20 talking with the pharmacist, I left with Nate's Rx and the knowledge that it was time to start with this new regime.  It was a long walk home....Brady's Smarties falling on the sidewalk led to several sit down/lie down times on the way home.  Yes, that 2 1/2 year old lying down on the sidewalk crying was mine!!

Once home, I wanted to get a base line pulse for Nate so I would have something to compare it to for the next 3 days until we get his blood pressure checked.  That didn't go well.  It's pretty challenging!

Then came the hard part.  And I started to bawl.  It's not that I was so scared of this drug and what it would do, but more that this was the first time that I've had to actively do something to/for Nate as a result of his condition.  Kind of like admitting that this actually was real and was happening.  Of course add to that the worry of any possible complications, and you've got a mommy who really doesn't want to give her son his meds.  After a quick call to Don, to get some encouragement, I did it.  And prayed.

I almost had to call 'my person', but then this happened.  I'm holding my Nate and cuddling him and crying.  Then I pull him back just to look at him and he gives me this goofy little smile.

That's what I call perspective!

You know, I'm glad this was hard.

If it wasn't, I'd have to wonder.